When our 2 year old had a low grade fever on and off for a couple weeks, we thought infection...never cancer. In fact, it took me more than a year before I could say "cancer" in the same context as my little girl. Somehow I was more comfortable saying "leukemia" because there was no way my "baby" could have cancer.
How does this happen? It was not part of our plan. Our two children were born healthy, with all their fingers and toes. I had everything I had always dreamed of until the rug was pulled out from underneath me.
Luckily, Ella was tougher than I am and kept me strong. She led me into every visit to the hospital. Often it was slumped in her stroller because she had no energy, but she always had her best foot forward.
It has been a bumpy road, but Ella finished her treatment in January and we have found such joy in "normal" life.